Am I right?! I have spent so much of my life trying to be perfect. Obsessing over the amount of workouts I needed to do, over the amount of calories I SHOULDN'T eat, and the way my body should look.
Almost EVERYDAY with 4 hours of workouts & only eating 1200 calories or less led me FAR from perfect. Instead it left me overworked, stressed and even more unhappy.
How did I get to that point that I thought if all of that was perfect I’d be happy, healthy and perfect?!
As great as my job may sound, working out and getting paid for it, it comes with some not so great things too. The thought that my body had to be perfect was always a big one. That feeling I’d get when I told people what I did for a living and I got the full body check out from them and then the comments “Oh yea I can tell, your legs are so bulky and muscular.“ “You must be able to eat whatever you want?” or the arm poke to see how tight my muscles are.
But instead I heard “Dude your legs are fat and huge.” “You obviously eat shit all the time and don’t take the time, and commitment to eating healthy.” & every time someone poked my arm to check my muscles, I always felt like they weren't impressed.
Those triggers just pushed my journey of becoming perfect deeper and deeper.
But at 28% body fat, 25% and even 18% I never felt like I was what I should be.
My journey of being perfect came to a screeching stop when I realized all this damage had caused depression, chronic fatigue and a lost menstrual cycle. I was FAR from perfect.
And although your journey might not end as intense as mine did, I worry about those that are trying to get somewhere without thinking about the consequences.
Striving to be perfect will never lead to a good ending. will leave us unsatisfied with ourselves. And that is never a good feeling.
You do not need to be perfect.
There isn’t happiness in perfect.
I believe that you are intelligent and capable of figuring out who you are and accepting it. Can you improve yourself?! Of course you can, but I give you permission to stop striving for perfection.
I am excited to start this blog and get a little deeper about some of the things I have been personally going through. But also to help YOU learn how to love, accept and nourish your mind and body. I hope to give you some readings on different things I have learned that are helping me and will help you too.
It might get really raw and really in-depth about what I have been going through and still am.